Did I Just Say That???

I went to a girl's night out event tonight that was hosted at one of my friend's house. I was away from my little munchkins but I still was very much in mommy mode.

Picture this in your head... I had this little dog on my lap.....somebody walked by and said hi to the dog and without thinking twice I looked at the dog and said in a nice voice "can you say hi back"? Oh my gosh!!! After I said that.. I said... "did I just say that"? I'm so used to saying that to Matthew when people say hi to him that it just came out so naturally when that person said hi to the dog. I kept myself laughing about it randomly throughout the night. I'm definitely my biggest source of entertainment.

Hormonal Beast

When Victor and I got married, I was on the pill and continued to be on it for the first 2 years of our marriage. I was a wreck emotionally and I had no idea the pill was to blame. I had an idea it was giving me my bad headaches but I didn't know it was affecting my emotions until I was off of it (although I should have guessed it since it makes your body believe it's already pregnant). When I got off of them I felt so much better and vowed that I never, ever wanted to feel that way again. I got pregnant about a month and a half later which of course sent my hormones into crazy mode again. I have been pregnant or nursing ever since. I feel like i'm in a constant state of trying to resemble a normal woman while fighting the hormonal beast. My hormones have not been normal our whole marriage.. I honestly can't remember what it is like to be "normal". One day I will but for now the fight continues.

Quotes from this week..

Since we've announced our 3rd pregnancy we've had so many people say things to us. Some good and super encouraging, some not so good. I think that people's reactions have been funny and entertaining to say the least. Honestly I don't care what people think because I know God is in control.. but here are some of the quotes I heard this week:

"wow, congrats!"

"are you serious?"

"you're young, you might as well have more"

"are you surprised or just stupid?"

"how old are your other two??"

"hey might as well get them all out at once"

"you're brave"

"yay, another estrada to baby sit"

"you're going to be busy"

"you're going to need a lot of help"

"you're body isn't ready to have another one"

"you and Victor have been blessed with fertility"

Can you imagine how my emotions could be all over the place if I allowed people's opinons to rule over me? I thank God that He really has given me confidence in what He is doing in my life... Thank God that my identity can be found in Him.

A second look at " Wild at Heart"

Wild at Heart is a very popular book that so many people love. I actually really liked it when I first read it too and the ideas that John Eldredge presented seemed great. I've always heard good things about the book and I've never really heard any negative critiques on it until I came across an article on the resurgence website. After reading the critique on it, I suprisingly had my mind changed about the book and agree with the points made in the article. If your interested in seeing what I read, here is the link: Is God Wild at Heart?

Halloween..

I know these pictures from Halloween are old and it's almost Thanksgiving.. oh well..The kids had a great time at Calvary....They had lots of fun stuff to do...Here are some highlights from our night there.

Good Times

I love these moments and I love my family!

God is writing my story...

Lately I've been thinking about my life and the work God has been doing ever since He convicted me to surrender my plans and life to Him..

I been thinking about the past 5 years and how they have not been even close to what I used to imagine this time of my life would look like....... but they have been better than my imagination and absolutly perfect for my life.. You see in my story I would be married much later in life, financially established and well off, have kids that were a few years spaced apart and basically have a life that was so comfortable that I really didn't need to look to God much because I had control (that's what i used to picture)... BUT that has not been my story.. I got married at 20, i'm always looking to God to see how He is going to get us through financial issues, and baby # 3 is not too far apart from my other 2 babies.. I feel that every time God has changed my story I'm always surprised and perplexed about how His story is going to out do mine... but whenever I look back and see what He has done... His story has ALWAYS been better than mine. I've got a peace about the plans God has for my life and I'm grateful for that.
Proverbs 16: 3,9,33

Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.

In his heart man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.

The lot is cast into the lap, but its every decsision is from the Lord.

What's God's story in your life??

Weaning Woes...

So today I had to officially wean Rachel from nursing because of several reasons that I'm not going to give. The doctor's recomendation was for me to completely stop nursing and wait for Rachel to get hungry enough to accept the bottle.. So today I nursed her for the last time at 11:30am and she refused to take the bottle until 7pm...I'm so glad she finally took it but she had me worried. I never had this much difficulty weaning Matthew so I was not used to this long, drawn out, emotional rollercoaster.. I've actually been trying to slowly wean her for the past week but I guess she needed to do it cold turkey.. Oh well. I'm just thankful that finally she got some liquids in her. Thank God!